I don't know. I'd accepted she was gone when I set my sights for Prehevil. All I wanted at least were answers, something to tell me it wasn't just for nothing. Just so I could understand any part of it all.
I've only left with more questions, and I thought I would die like that. And after everything, I thought maybe it wouldn't be so bad.
...
And now I'm here, in an extended form of the same thing, but not even in my world. Sure, I could possibly use this "wish" to get the answers I'm looking for. Maybe even revive Elise -- Famine told me as much that it was in the realm of possibility.
But I don't know. I feel like I'm different. Maybe I could wish her back to life anyway, and have her move on, craft a new life -- I think I'd be satisfied with that, too.
...I knew a woman once. She had been murdered, and her husband became an adventurer after. He set out to find the means to get her back. He spent years as an adventurer, and even found a new wife, a new family. But he kept his promise to her, and had a holy man return her to life.
The life she returned to was so cold. Everyone who loved her was either dead or had long moved on. She had no place in the world anymore.
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I think you should bring her back if you think it would be a kindness to her, but you must know returning her when you can't be the man she was married to anymore would break her heart.
He's taken aback and hurt, visibly, by this. Not in the sense that what Laudna said was something hurtful, but more that this perspective wasn't something he'd considered, clearly, and it feels like wrenching his chest open to say it like that. ]
[it was a harsh thing to say, but she thinks it's true. death isn't so awful, but loneliness is a cruelty that's unbearable to experience. maybe hypocritical of her, since she would wish to let imogen live a happy life and move on from her, but... ]
I don't know that death hurts anyone but the living. To those experiencing it, there's no cruelty.
But there's no harm in obtaining a wish for yourself, if only for the ability to think about it and choose.
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Then that's very selfless of you, Ms. Laudna. I pray you'll be able to get what you wish for.
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I don't know. I'd accepted she was gone when I set my sights for Prehevil. All I wanted at least were answers, something to tell me it wasn't just for nothing. Just so I could understand any part of it all.
I've only left with more questions, and I thought I would die like that. And after everything, I thought maybe it wouldn't be so bad.
...
And now I'm here, in an extended form of the same thing, but not even in my world. Sure, I could possibly use this "wish" to get the answers I'm looking for. Maybe even revive Elise -- Famine told me as much that it was in the realm of possibility.
But I don't know. I feel like I'm different. Maybe I could wish her back to life anyway, and have her move on, craft a new life -- I think I'd be satisfied with that, too.
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The life she returned to was so cold. Everyone who loved her was either dead or had long moved on. She had no place in the world anymore.
[...]
I think you should bring her back if you think it would be a kindness to her, but you must know returning her when you can't be the man she was married to anymore would break her heart.
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He's taken aback and hurt, visibly, by this. Not in the sense that what Laudna said was something hurtful, but more that this perspective wasn't something he'd considered, clearly, and it feels like wrenching his chest open to say it like that. ]
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...I suppose... I just hadn't...
I don't know, then.
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[it was a harsh thing to say, but she thinks it's true. death isn't so awful, but loneliness is a cruelty that's unbearable to experience. maybe hypocritical of her, since she would wish to let imogen live a happy life and move on from her, but... ]
I don't know that death hurts anyone but the living. To those experiencing it, there's no cruelty.
But there's no harm in obtaining a wish for yourself, if only for the ability to think about it and choose.
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You don't have to be sorry. If anything, maybe I should be -- for getting you involved a bit in my personal affairs.
Um... thank you, regardless. I'll think about it.
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[she likes him. even if this was hard.]
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[ And it keeps coming and it don't stop coming... ]
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