daan daniël

[undread]

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[recession]

You're probably a lot wiser than me in that regard then. And a lot stronger. All this and more's worn me down pretty bad.

[undread]

I'm not wise or strong at all, Daniël. [a small, dark smile.] It's been thirty years of this, and I'm tired of fighting, and many days I don't even know who I am - if there's any part of me left that isn't just her.

I just think I want to consider trying to not give up after all, that's all. [consider trying to not, that's as far as she can go.]

[recession]

...You're telling me that, but I haven't even been alive that long and I'm already on the precipice. So, you'll maybe understand a little bit why I think so?

I also often hear the same thing. That I'm no better than the rest, the people that I've tried to distance myself from, and it. That it's always there in me, as long as I exist. It's what I'm hearing now, ever since I tried to walk out of that shitshow.

[ Execution, that is. Really this has been the roughest 12 hours ever ICly. ]

[undread]

From whom are you hearing that.

[it's not from her.]

I don't even know what it is, or who they are, dear.

[recession]

...Sorry, I'm just talking nonsense, aren't I?

I'm not trying to burden you or trying to garner sympathy with a bunch of nihilistic talk. I'm just a bit worried, is all.

[undread]

It's not a burden or nonsense. I'm not telling you what you have to do.

[recession]

...I guess you aren't.

[ Silent for a moment, absently rubbing his upper arm. ]

Another week gone. Another six people also gone.

What do you think of our chances?

[undread]

Not high.

[bluntly.]

If we lose this many every week...

[recession]

...And yet, the alleged goal of this cult isn't an early extinction.

Yes, they intend for all lives lost by the end, but they need some amount -- to take the bare minimum, let's say just one -- alive at the actual moment of the summon.

Leaves you wondering a bit.

[undread]

...Yes. It doesn't make sense. I suppose they could stop summoning monsters if our numbers get down to too few, but you would think sacrificing more of us would be ideal.

[so why.]

It makes you wonder what the Overseers are actually trying to accomplish.

[recession]

[ Huh. ]

You don't trust them still?

[undread]

No, it's not that. I actually have good reason to trust them a little, I think. At least, I found something out this week that's very...reassuring.

[does not elaborate.]

But I don't think they have told us everything about what they're attempting. I think they would admit as much.

[recession]

...Is it information that's pertinent to all of us, or something private?

...

I'm sure they haven't shown all their cards. That comes with all sorts of risks of their own.

[undread]

It's... something private, I think.

[at least she thinks so.]

Yes, precisely. So we may be missing some of the pieces.