It's not. [ he sounds a little wretched by it. ] The stuff I forgot... Some of it was important to me.
[ but her conviction about the rest of it does kind of help, even if he's not so sure. ]
... I don't know if it's that simple. Part of it... It affects everyone who used to be SOLDIER, like I was. They call it degradation. But... he's got a hold on those guys, too. I've seen it. [ staring at his hands again, and he shakes his head abruptly ] I don't want Delilah to have a hold on you anymore than I want him anywhere near me.
She has a hold because she wanted me to be a tool for her. A puppet. An undead thrall.
[so she does understand what he means. but the comment makes her a little sad; in some ways, she's given up on freeing herself. she looks at him.]
She always sounds so confident, like everything she does is on purpose, but she lies. She didn't intend for me to have the ability to resist her. You might be more than he intended you to be, too.
[ hm she says puppet and he is frowning because. well. same. as seen on tv (memories). he doesn't like sharing this hat with anyone, really. ]
... I have to be. Our whole goal is to take him down. [ that has him a little more confident than anything else in this convo, although; ] She meant to have full control over you. Is that it?
[ he said that normally. completely. not at all like he was hypnotized into it or something. don't worry about it. but he blinks like nothing happened and; ]
I don't know for sure. He's said... a lot of things. But he's going to wipe all life on the planet for it, with only himself remaining. And... I think he wants me there, too.
[ this one is a little perturbed because he does not know. why. ]
Maybe he does want it. But perhaps only because he is not astute enough to conceive of you as the threat you are.
[she will just determinedly believe in him. they are very same hat, but she also sees in him something like orym - very quiet, a dedicated soldier, but both a surprising kindness and a firm resolve in him. best boy.]
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[ but her conviction about the rest of it does kind of help, even if he's not so sure. ]
... I don't know if it's that simple. Part of it... It affects everyone who used to be SOLDIER, like I was. They call it degradation. But... he's got a hold on those guys, too. I've seen it. [ staring at his hands again, and he shakes his head abruptly ] I don't want Delilah to have a hold on you anymore than I want him anywhere near me.
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[so she does understand what he means. but the comment makes her a little sad; in some ways, she's given up on freeing herself. she looks at him.]
She always sounds so confident, like everything she does is on purpose, but she lies. She didn't intend for me to have the ability to resist her. You might be more than he intended you to be, too.
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... I have to be. Our whole goal is to take him down. [ that has him a little more confident than anything else in this convo, although; ] She meant to have full control over you. Is that it?
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[they aren't supposed to be sentient. they're just supposed to be mindless zombies.]
...It's as she said, though. Our goals aren't really at cross purposes. At least, not for now.
[so she just feels she needs to accept the presence of this woman.]
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[ he doesn't say create. he doesn't... think that is fair. laudna seems to have created herself well enough. ]
What happens when your goals are at cross purposes? What are you gonna do?
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I'll have to find a way to stop her, then. Or my friends will.
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[ because they were very intense about telling her to shut up about bullshit and so, clearly, ]
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[she just isn't sure she will survive what they have to do to stop her.]
And you and your friends won't let him win, either.
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[ he said that normally. completely. not at all like he was hypnotized into it or something. don't worry about it. but he blinks like nothing happened and; ]
I don't know for sure. He's said... a lot of things. But he's going to wipe all life on the planet for it, with only himself remaining. And... I think he wants me there, too.
[ this one is a little perturbed because he does not know. why. ]
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[she will just determinedly believe in him. they are very same hat, but she also sees in him something like orym - very quiet, a dedicated soldier, but both a surprising kindness and a firm resolve in him. best boy.]
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Yeah. We've pushed him back every time. [ ... ] Thanks, Laudna.