[she frowns, like, hm. the idea of growing up with a thing inside of you for long enough that you straight up just don't know anymore is Very Bad, actually.]
You're in your fifties now, right? It's probably normal to feel like a different person than you were a couple of years ago. But if she's been inside you since then...
I can't. I don't want to find my partner, so using my wish for anything is out of the question. And... even though I hate it, I need her power to save somebody who's in a lot of danger right now.
[but it sounds like the former bothers her more. interesting.]
I think everyone looking for their partner is cognizant of that risk, you know. And perhaps that risk is worth it to them for what they can gain. If your reservation was for yourself, that would be different...
I just... want to do the right thing. [whatever that is.] In any case, it sounds like most people aren't looking for theirs. So it doesn't even matter.
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[so that answer isn't exactly clear.]
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[a quick look of understanding, here and gone a second.]
Like your emotions and personalities are melding with each other.
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[she says this sympathetically; it's horrible.]
I suppose I hadn't developed enough of a sense of identity, so now I don't know what's her and what's just... the very different life I've led.
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You're in your fifties now, right? It's probably normal to feel like a different person than you were a couple of years ago. But if she's been inside you since then...
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[...]
Asa, are you going to use your wish to try and free yourself?
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she shakes her head.]
I can't. I don't want to find my partner, so using my wish for anything is out of the question. And... even though I hate it, I need her power to save somebody who's in a lot of danger right now.
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Is it because you don't want to tie yourself to someone else?
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I can't let somebody tie themselves to me. If I die or get possessed, then I'll only be dragging them down with me.
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[but it sounds like the former bothers her more. interesting.]
I think everyone looking for their partner is cognizant of that risk, you know. And perhaps that risk is worth it to them for what they can gain. If your reservation was for yourself, that would be different...
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I see. You must feel quite burdened by the things you've seen.
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