kate

[undread]

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[sootprints]

... I'm sorry, too. I should have said something sooner...

Whenever I heard the ways people talked about Camille, I got scared. I imagined them saying the same things about me. I thought that if I told anyone, I'd be killed.

[undread]

You might have been.

[she can't fault her for feeling that way; camille very much was killed, after all.]

I wouldn't have hurt you. But you don't have any reason to have known that. I don't really trust people easily, myself; I doubt I'd have told anyone if it were me.

[sootprints]

When everyone was saying that Camille had no choice but to die, Famine was the only person who told me "if you want to live, then live." So I've been relying on them since then.

[ there are some complex feelings there... pained and fond and uncertain. ]

But... I believe you. I did think that if anyone would understand, you might. And that you'd never do anything cruel to me. I knew that.

[undread]

I think everyone wants to assume the thing that benefits them most is also the kindest thing. I've heard so many people say, "if I were a monster, I'd want to die, so that's the right thing to do." But I wouldn't want to die. Being alive is sometimes all we have - it's the only way to change our fate.

I don't think there's anything selfish in deciding to protect your life. I'm glad you did.