Ashlyn

[undread]

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[killies]

[ unfortunately there is an undercurrent of hopelessness. seeing people get midtrialed constantly will do that. ]

... Mathis wants to give up.

[undread]

...Yes.

[not a huge surprise there.]

Trying to convince him not to?

[killies]

I can't change his mind.

[undread]

No. It's not possible to, I think. No one can be made to fight for themselves.

[killies]

[ she goes quiet at that, mulling it over for a long moment. ]

But I'm still fighting for him...

[undread]

I'm not saying to give up on him, necessarily. [she does care about that pathetic boy.] Only that you cannot guarantee his participation.

[killies]

I can't guarantee much of anything anymore.

[undread]

...Maybe not.

[she continues to work on her doll, twisting some thread into a sweet little smile for it.]

It did work, a little. Thursday. We can do something similar again, if that will help. You couldn't know in advance what it would be.

[killies]

Then it doesn't really matter what I say, does it? If it's something that has to be a secret from me.

[undread]

It matters to me if you would agree to that or not.

[killies]

I don't want to lose control of myself again.

[ not that she likes the idea of other people exerting control to counteract that, either. but she's logical enough to lean towards the greater good. ]

[undread]

...Alright. I can't promise anything will work, but I don't want to leave you to deal with it on your own.

[killies]

[ she almost says 'it's worth trying' but then she thinks about kate and decides she doesn't necessarily believe that. she's just too scared and selfish to do the right thing instead. ]

Okay. Okay.

[undread]

[she will put an arm around her. her emotions are caring. she's uncertain what can be done, but she wants to help.]

It's worth trying. We all just have to get to the end.