Kind of the opposite. If something moves in the [ sure, she'll use that phrase. ] waking world, they move in the Phantom Dimension too. But if we move something in the Phantom Dimension, the waking world version is unaffected.
Even injuries don't carry over fully. There's no physical trace of them and the pain is lessened by a lot.
I... [ she's a little uncomfortable saying this part. she shifts her weight from one foot to the other, uncomfortably. ] I hear things, sometimes. Auditory hallucinations. Like a side effect of my sensitive hearing.
Or that's what I thought, but it's been the phantoms. And if I've been hearing them my whole life, that means there's some connection between me and that place. Like maybe I'm the one who pulled the others in.
[ she sounds uncertain about it, though, like this is just her best guess. ]
It is similar to Imogen. [her hearing of other people's thoughts and emotions, her prophetic dreams, dragging them all into something dangerous.] I don't think you pulled them in. I suspect your sensitivity just made you alert in advance to something that might have otherwise been an unknown.
They kidnapped us. They locked us and our parents up, and they might have been responsible for us getting caught up in the Phantom Dimension from the beginning.
[well. she's an undead, so she supposes she should stand up for zombies, but... she wouldn't fault someone for defending herself.]
Of course it was. I do think part of being a leader is being willing to protect the people relying on you, even if it's painful. You needn't feel ashamed of your instincts to defend yourself and others.
If you don't mind my saying so, it doesn't seem as though it's all that easy for you. The fact that you're struggling with it even now suggests otherwise.
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Even injuries don't carry over fully. There's no physical trace of them and the pain is lessened by a lot.
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[or blame.]
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Or that's what I thought, but it's been the phantoms. And if I've been hearing them my whole life, that means there's some connection between me and that place. Like maybe I'm the one who pulled the others in.
[ she sounds uncertain about it, though, like this is just her best guess. ]
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It is similar to Imogen. [her hearing of other people's thoughts and emotions, her prophetic dreams, dragging them all into something dangerous.] I don't think you pulled them in. I suspect your sensitivity just made you alert in advance to something that might have otherwise been an unknown.
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Maybe. I don't know. They think that maybe we can open a rift between the two dimensions. And if that's the case and I opened it first...
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But... I... Did open one. On purpose. [ guess who's been compartmentalizing something for weeks. ]
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[ which isn't. a lot. ]
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[she hmms.]
...Is this something that happened shortly before you arrival?
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[ she's not willing to dismiss the idea. ]
Yeah. It happened like... a day before we got here. I'd barely gotten to talk to my caretaker since it happened.
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[you seem worried about it.]
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I don't know what I did to those people. I wanted something bad to happen to them.
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[unfortunately, she smiles a little at that, interested. but it's not cruel.]
Who were these people? What did they do to make you feel that way?
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And they made me kill someone.
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[she's not against hurting some dangerous people.]
How is it that they made you...?
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[ that's how she felt in the moment at least. but thoughts like that always scare her afterwards. ]
It's complicated. But he was basically—like a zombie? Like he wasn't in his right mind anymore. All he could do was attack anything in front of him.
They said they wanted me to talk to him. And then they released his restraints. It was a matter of survival.
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Of course it was. I do think part of being a leader is being willing to protect the people relying on you, even if it's painful. You needn't feel ashamed of your instincts to defend yourself and others.
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It was too easy.
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Well. It's alright to worry about it. Perhaps I am more used to violence.
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