undread | yuffie

Yes. But all monsters may not be the same. Perhaps hers is a more gentle one.

[an awful thought, but maybe she thought killing tomi was an act of mercy.]

I guess I could see her thinking she was doing Tomizawa a favor.

[ ..... and maybe she was, really. ]

I don't know. I really can't predict what was going through her head at all.

All I know is that if someone gets really.... caring about me, and insists I'm not alone, that they'll be there for me no matter what, there's a 80% chance they're gonna turn out to be afflicted within a week.

[ this is very "but what about MY feelings!!!!" of yuffie but she is, after all, a sixteen year old girl ]

Caelus?

[sounds like caelus.]

Robin.

.... But him too, really. [ she has been bullied by the entire hsr cast and i think that's impressive ]

I'm sorry, dear.

[she frankly guessed caelus because it was a rash thing to promise.]

I don't promise to be there for you no matter what, because we never know what the next weeks will bring.

[ this is why you're gonna endgame, siz ]

... Yeah. Exactly. [ swallows ]

I'm glad she didn't freak out on you. [ that laudna is okay... ]

I don't like being yelled at, but especially not in a crowded place like that.

[the only person mad at her last week was camille, who was obviously possessed, and everyone else defended her, but it didn't feel that way. there was so much yelling and chaos happening because of lucas and yuffie and mathis and aqua and she wasn't able in that moment to understand that none of that had anything to do with her. that sort of situation just terrifies her.]

It makes me feel like everyone is going to be angry at me for saying such a thing about Camille or Robin and they'll all try to kill me.

.. I get it. [ well, it's understandable. there's a lot of chaos and a lot of screaming and a lot of fighting. that's just what the last 30 minutes of trial are all about at all times, let alone when there's four killers ]

[ and she understands pretty well why laudna is scared of that. considering ]

Want me to show you what I do when I get overwhelmed? It's simple, but it works.

[she nods just a little.]

If you'd like.

I just.... squeeze my eyes shut. Take a really slow and deep breath. Think about my mission. Think hard about how I'm breathing, and how it goes through my body. Like a little mini-meditation, almost.... when I do that, everything else kind of blocks out.

I suppose it couldn't hurt to try. I don't really breathe, though?

[so that could be a problem.]

I could think about how I'm not breathing, perhaps.

You could try breathing and think about how it feels weird? Or... uh. Yeah, maybe how you're not breathing. But putting all your focus into one thing, it helps block everything else out.

That's how I.... didn't lose my nerve.... when things started going to shit. [ when she killed lucas ]

You do have a lot of courage. You always manage to stay in control.

[so maybe it would work on her, too.]

[ she is quiet for a bit ]

Not always.

[ don't you remember her crying like a lil bitch after she killed lucas ]

[she really doesn't, but even so.]

I'm sure not, but you haven't lost it in a way that is... impossible to repair.

What do you mean...?

[ like tomizawa, giving into the despair (tm)? ]

Well, I'm not always good at controlling my feelings. The last time I truly lost control, I brought her back.

How?

[ she got so angy she summoned matthew mercer?? ]

I tapped into a well of power that was hers.

[she frowns.]

My friends had managed to get rid of her, and I brought her back.

Oh. [ awkward ]

Was she even really gone, then, if you could just.. bring her back by using her powers?

She was never fully gone. I'm only alive because of her magic. But she was gone enough at least...

Well.... I mean. You can't change what happened. But you can work on it. I've lost my shit before.

[ she has also ruined things for cloud and the gang before (according to the entirety of fandom) but yuffie does not know ic that she ruined it so i can't use it as an example help ]

I suppose. Though if I go back, it will just be Delilah again no matter what.

[pets yuffie]

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