mathis

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[well she's right, he can't deny he probably comes off that way, but he still wilts when she says that was her assumption.]

Sh-she definitely... isn't helpless.

[he's pretty sure about that. not because of the murder.]

...if you understood it, though, then I'm... sorry that you've felt similarly.

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I know. My opinion of her changed, when she told me more about herself.

[as it did of him but i'm sorry she still always says insane things.]

It's alright. I try not to think about things that are painful like that.

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Even if that means- not thinking of someone?

[undread]

If they were very important to me, I would find it hard to never think of them. But to think of them all the time - I don't know.

I never think about the people anymore from long ago, before I died. But even my friend who died more recently - I don't like to dwell on it. I won't forget him, but I don't want to think too much about what happened. It's so difficult.

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I-it is. But I think that I've always... had the opposite sort of trouble.

[he shakes his head, slightly.]

I don't... know how not to think about it, th-though that wasn't something I could really control, either.

[undread]

You're still very young. It gets easier with time. Terrible things happen, but they happened in the past. Those particular things that trouble you are all behind you now, and they'll get further and further away.

[of course they still come back, especially when you avoid them forever, but the exact painful moment is gone.]