[oh sorry for weird reactions always, but she presses her hands together and smiles at this.]
Oh my, Tomi. You terrified that man. Good for you.
[that's much more fun than revenge, actually. this memory should definitely show her that she was wrong to encourage him to bloodthirst but in general this is actually quite cool, ichiban is right.]
If I find whoever killed him, then maybe... But, I know Ichiban. He wasn't possessed and I'm pretty sure whoever killed him wasn't either. They chose to do it. That's pure fucking evil.
Well. The Overseers did confirm it was someone who was possessed by a monster. But it was an especially brutal death - I think the monsters draw from who we are as people.
[so she certainly doesn't disagree with his right to hate them.]
[ maybe if tomi didn't ignore the overseers at every opportunity he could have been clued into this, but, that's on him. it still doesn't change his feelings on the matter. ]
...Yeah, I think so too. So, I guess it doesn't really matter if they were possessed or not. They're still shit.
I don't know. Like, I want... Fuck, man, if it was that easy to take them out like I could have with Dwight, then-- I don't know. I don't wanna sink to that level. But threats aren't going to work on monsters.
I think it's alright if you don't want to sink to that level. Ichiban seemed proud of you, for not giving in to pure rage in that moment. Maybe I was wrong.
[she said all of those things about revenge because it makes her feel better, to put her emotions into something, and she didn't know how else to help. but there's something that feels so positive about watching him decide to handle it a different way.]
Yeah, he was on a totally different level. It was just like, it's effortless for him.
[ which, he knows isn't necessarily true. but no matter what, ichiban could just get up and keeping fighting, pushing forward, all to do something better. tomi isn't like that. he never will be like that, but... he can take these little steps and maybe get somewhere close. ]
week 2; monday
this is like the only scene i prefer in english because the delivery is that good. ends 5:21 ]
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Oh my, Tomi. You terrified that man. Good for you.
[that's much more fun than revenge, actually. this memory should definitely show her that she was wrong to encourage him to bloodthirst but in general this is actually quite cool, ichiban is right.]
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...Yeah, if only I coulda been like that on Saturday. Maybe something else would've happened.
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Maybe. Maybe not. I do think there's value in showing more people here that side of you, the side that refuses to be fucked with. But what do I know.
[...]
I am sorry, by the way. My theory about Ichiban was incorrect, so I wish I hadn't brought it up.
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If I find whoever killed him, then maybe... But, I know Ichiban. He wasn't possessed and I'm pretty sure whoever killed him wasn't either. They chose to do it. That's pure fucking evil.
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[so she certainly doesn't disagree with his right to hate them.]
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...Yeah, I think so too. So, I guess it doesn't really matter if they were possessed or not. They're still shit.
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[some people want to forgive, but she's not very forgiving. at least, not at the moment.]
I suppose you no longer feel that terrifying them is enough?
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I don't know. Like, I want... Fuck, man, if it was that easy to take them out like I could have with Dwight, then-- I don't know. I don't wanna sink to that level. But threats aren't going to work on monsters.
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[she said all of those things about revenge because it makes her feel better, to put her emotions into something, and she didn't know how else to help. but there's something that feels so positive about watching him decide to handle it a different way.]
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[ which, he knows isn't necessarily true. but no matter what, ichiban could just get up and keeping fighting, pushing forward, all to do something better. tomi isn't like that. he never will be like that, but... he can take these little steps and maybe get somewhere close. ]
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[she can think of several people like that.]
The rest of us have to wade through the muck. But I suppose one can still take inspiration.