[The way he didn't even know Laudna was dead despite her zombie aesthetic because they do not exist in his world so he just assumed she was some General Not Human Being.]
Ah... [BUT ALSO, THAT'S HORRIFIC. The idea of just being haunted forever by the asshole that killed you... gazes at the gy] ...But if that's the case, then there's certainly a point in fighting her, isn't there?
[it's not great, no. she just sounds tired when she answers this question.]
I can fight her every moment of my life. But why? She always manages to get her way in the end. And she wants the same things I do - to ensure this body survives, to become stronger. [even if delilah only wants those things so she can take them for herself, eventually. she's too tired to keep struggling against her when cooperating with her has benefits.]
[The tiredness seems to hit a bit of a chord with him, and he frowns very faintly.]
But surely you want those things for different reasons?
[He simply does not trust some wildass lady who would murder someone and then stick to them like a tick to have any good reason for encouraging a person's growth.]
Yes. And her reasons are not good. But if I can stop it before it gets to the point she can do something awful... or if my friends can... then in the meantime it's better.
[Too many people here are using themselves as vessels to contain a potentially great evil. He had no idea this was such a prevalent problem in the multiverse...]
It still sounds like a terrible gamble to take... But you yourself also sound very tired.
[Said with a little note of sympathy. Sometimes you spend so long fighting the horrors that you are truly just. Tired.]
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[and if she'll just come back again...]
I don't know if there's any point fighting her, really.
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...I apologize if this is invasive. Needless to say, you don't have to answer. But how did you end up with such a thing attached to you...?
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[maybe a little invasive, but what isn't.]
That woman is the one who killed me. I suppose when she did so, she left a piece of herself behind.
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Ah... [BUT ALSO, THAT'S HORRIFIC. The idea of just being haunted forever by the asshole that killed you... gazes at the gy] ...But if that's the case, then there's certainly a point in fighting her, isn't there?
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I can fight her every moment of my life. But why? She always manages to get her way in the end. And she wants the same things I do - to ensure this body survives, to become stronger. [even if delilah only wants those things so she can take them for herself, eventually. she's too tired to keep struggling against her when cooperating with her has benefits.]
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But surely you want those things for different reasons?
[He simply does not trust some wildass lady who would murder someone and then stick to them like a tick to have any good reason for encouraging a person's growth.]
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[just kind of a last desperate attempt.]
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It still sounds like a terrible gamble to take... But you yourself also sound very tired.
[Said with a little note of sympathy. Sometimes you spend so long fighting the horrors that you are truly just. Tired.]
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[she can admit that.]
I don't want to keep fighting pointless battles.
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It would be a very sad thing to see you lost to that exhaustion, even so.
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[she's not so sure. she's had a lot of time.]
Thank you, nonetheless.
[also if you would care to do a reverse memshare 🥺]
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[Whatever he was going to say is so rudely interrupted as the void decides it's time to throw his terrible secrets on the floor instead!! Yippie!]
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...The rites? What were they doing?
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...Ah. Purification...? [Why is that a question. He crosses his arms over his middle.] Yes. The purification rites.
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[he clearly doesn't remember but she's only just getting to that.]
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It was just a dose of medication for the day.
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[well. that doesn't sound right.]
Health problems can be so difficult.
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Yes, it certainly seemed like quite a detailed operation. Many treatments.
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I wasn't in need of much care, really... I just went through a period of high nerves when I was younger.
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[i feel like, chaotically, she believes him about this.]
You're such a calming presence now.
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Lucas also loves Laudna in this moment because he now does not have to confront many complex things.]
Do you think so? It makes me glad to hear that... Though I doubt I would have made it very long as a teacher if I couldn't stay calm.
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[great advice for us all to follow.]
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Well! If it works for you, then I suppose that's good, though I do worry what may happen if you get into a situation where you can't ignore it.
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